The Perfection Trap

I am tired of trying to be perfect. I am tired of beinghave us do can bring criticism from others. Not
told I just need to use this deodorant, drive this car,everyone will always agree with us. So, whether it is
use this exercise equipment, eat these foods, and sospeaking in public or saying things within our circle of
on. And as if those admonitions were not enough,family and friends, at times we can be criticized.
there are all manner of people quite willing to tell usSometimes those criticisms are valid, and sometimes
what our goals in life should be as well. Friends andthey are not. But, regardless, can we learn to let go
family are very good at letting us know how we areof the pain of not being perfect in someone's eyes?
far from perfect. Is it any wonder that more andAs Christians we know on an intellectual level that we
more of us are seeking prescriptions for anxiety andare not perfect, and never will be perfect. It is God's
depression? How are we ever supposed to live up tograce that offers us forgiveness for our
all the expectations other people have for us? Andimperfections. And yet we often beat ourselves up
how do we live with ourselves when we can't?each time we are reminded of just how imperfect
Indeed no one can be ok by everybody's standards.we can be. We seem to forget that in several places
There will always be someone who can fault with usin the Bible Jesus is telling us to love our neighbor as
for something. But the good news is that that is ok.we love ourselves. What does that kind of love look
As Christians we don't need other people's approval.like? Are we, and our neighbors, only lovable when
We only need to try to do the best we can on anywe use the right products, say the right words, or
given day, knowing that God loves us, and alsoperform according to someone else's expectation?
knowing that He understands when our best isUnconditional love means just that. We are to love
sometimes far from great. After all, we are forgivenothers even when they are not being very lovable.
people, people as 1 John 1:9 reminds us who justAnd, yes, at times we need to protect ourselves
need to confess our weaknesses to God. God willfrom other's bad behavior, but even when that is the
forgive us, but can we forgive ourselves?case, we are to still to think of them with love. After
We all know that those closest to us know justall it is so true about walking a mile in another
what "buttons" to push to try to make us feel guilty.person's shoes. If we really knew all the
When someone wants something from us that forcircumstances in anyone's life, could we still remain
whatever reason we are unable or unwilling to givecritical? I think not.
them, their words can often wound us deeply. How1 Corinthians 13 is often referred to as the love
many parents today, not willing to risk having theirchapter of the Bible. And for years I read it only as a
children angry with them, are accepting all sorts ofdescription of the way I should think of other people.
unacceptable behavior? And how many adult childrenI never looked at it as also a way that I should treat
are struggling to live up to the standards that theirmyself. But, if I am to love others as I love myself, I
parents set for them? How many people are nothad better be careful about how I am loving myself.
living their own lives, even perhaps the lives GodThat chapter tells us, among other things, that love is
would have them live, because of fear of thepatient, kind, keeps no record of wrongs, trusts,
reaction of those they care about? Between thesehopes, and perseveres. Well, are we patient with
people and all the information we are bombardedourselves? Are we kind to ourselves? Are we able to
with on a daily level telling us how to improve ourstop going over and over in our mind those things
lives, is it any wonder that we are stressed? We arewe may have done wrong? Or are we able to
constantly being told we are not "good enough";confess them to God and allow ourselves to feel
perfection should be our goal.forgiven? Can we continue to trust in ourselves,
Trying to be perfect, whether because it is the onlycontinue to feel hope that each day we are getting
way we can feel good about ourselves, or becausebetter, and especially, are we able to stay true to
we fear another's response, is keeping many of us inour desire to be ever more Christ-like, but without
a state of stress and unhappiness, often unable togetting into an anxious, self-critical state, thinking we
see all the good that is in our lives. I know for meare just such miserable failures?
that it can still be all too easy to allow myself to feelAs a human being I will never be perfect, never
miserable when I look back on some behavior or looktotally OK, and neither will any other person on earth.
back on some words I may have spoken. I can getWe can, and should, continue to strive to become
into dwelling on that and in doing so, I am not seeingmore Christ-like, but when we feel we have failed,
all the blessings in my life. Today I do workshops andGod is still loving us. Instead of staying stuck in our
retreats, but it has taken me a long time to feel ableguilt, we are free to confess and then pick ourselves
to do this, and the reason that was stopping me wasup and go on again.
the fear of criticism. Sometimes the things God would